Realization

Is it?

It's 5 in the morning. Finishing my PBL objective. Listening to System of A Down to prevent myself from being sleepy. Gulped down a few mugs of coffee. Couldn't fully understand the subject properly. Headache. Deprived of sleep. Feeling unmotivated. Try to think this through.

And quite so suddenly, a thought popped up in my mind:

Who the hell am I doing this for...?

*sulks in the corner*

Good Luck Dear

I specially made this post to wish good luck to Neko Hime on her SPM which will be starting today. Pray to God (points at pic above) that you'll be answering the exam paper in a calm state of mind and physically fit without any sickness for the next few week. By God's will the answer will come easy to you. Insyaallah.

And of course to all the other SPM candidates all over Malaysia, good luck.

Criterias for becoming a Malaysian Govt. Doctor

There's no need for an aptitude test. Students should consider these requirements:

1. No life outside medicine; this includes dating, sports, clubbing, chores for your parents and visiting the toilet.
2. Not to live with your parents. Move out ASAP as they will never understand the ludicrous working hours that u go through. Furthermore, chores are not suitable for u as to rule No. 1.
3. Not to be married until completion of all 4 years of Govt Compulsory service as u will be transferred left and right to some of the most remote Govt clinics in Malaysia. Having wife and kids to follow you to your new working area may increase high level of stress on all parties. Furthermore, if your spouse is a Govt Doctor, he/she will also be transferred away from u and no matter what appeal is made, KKM will put up a deaf ear (unless u have big cables or of a certain skin color).
4. If married, no to have children until u finish all 4 years of Govt Compulsory service, as to which u and your spouse will not have much time for your child/children or they end up not recognizing u and refer the Indonesian maid as their mother (change in language patterns commonly follow).
5. To obtain life insurance once your govt service begins as there is not many claims for accidents during work. Don't be fooled, Doctoring in Malaysia is hazardous.
6. Able to withstand 36 hours of non stop work and stress without mistakenly labeling Left for Right or uvula for vulva (or Volvo S40)
7. To buy a car with complete safety features which includes multiple airbags, ABS, EBD, side-front-rear-top-parallel and diagonal impact bars and seat belts to ensure survivability if u are involved in an accident because your driving resembled a drunkard maniac after working in the hospital for 40 hrs non stop.
8. Constant supply of coffee
9. Nicotine Patch as u will have the urge to start smoking due to overwhelming stress
10. Interest in watching medical sitcoms such as House MD, Scrubs, ER, Grays Anatomy and Chicago Hope to inspire u to continue your life as a doctor as the exciting things u see on TV does not resemble the real life of a Malaysian govt doctor.
11. Not to have any pets or plants (not even cactuses) as u will have no time to feed or care for them and eventually all will end up in your mortuary.
12. Able to endure the stench of your own sweat as to when 36 hours "on call" does not permit u time to bathe or freshen up.
13. Able to carry on working without food or water over 15 hours. ( I was in OT for 16 hrs without food, water or bathroom breaks). If during fasting month, able to break your fast with ?water for injection? as u had no time to buy food.
14. Able to come to work with fever/cough/illness or physical disability (sprained ankle etc) as to which doctors do not deserve MCs. (My MO was on crutches during rounds)
15. Able to stand scolding, destructive criticism, kiss ass behaviors, racial bias, finger pointing, scape goating, and in competency from your superiors.
16. Able to withstand the jealousy when your friends call u up for some fun and ur stuck in the hospital during on call.

Mid Sem Exam

Proof that even without leveling up you still can kick ass-

So, today I went to battle a mid-level boss. Current Level: O. No leveling up. No upgrading equipments. No items. Nothing. I haven't prepared anything. I was sure that I would totally be pawned. But the battle turned out to be alright after all. Now to wait for the result to see if I have miraculously obtain a new ability: 'Imagine Breaker'.

p/s: I'm gonna be using Level Upper as my last option.

A Prospectus on Medicine

Been on bloghopping in these past few days. Trying to look and feel how doctors think personally about themselves and also their world. Surprisingly, much of their thoughts are on the same roof as mine, but also don't forget the few bad apples in the career that (sometimes) tarnished the healthcare (or healthfucked) service.

And here are some comments which I like to touch on personally....

"Malaysian generally has lost their creativity. When they study, the sole objective is to get As, the more the better. The top scorers always choose the medical profession as there are no other profession in this world,"

So true, it saddens me that most teachers teaches us good stuffs only for us to get A's in our National Exam, SAT kind like exam. (SPM) This also reflected on the mentality of the parents, who spends hundreds of Dolars just to send their kids to the best private tuition available in their place, without looking at their child's mental needs, ideas, thoughts about it. Good environment won't evoke a good worksmanship if the person itself is injured/rotten inside.

And another problem.....the obsession with medical careers....do the parents think it's a GREAT job for their children? Do they think doing RECTAL examination (Looking at patient craps for green stuffs), BLOOD TESTS (Also to check for spirally shaped pathogens and other errs) or worst, TIGHT work schedule for life is cool? Stop yapping about how noble it is, helping injured creeps back to their health, because healthcare is only for, as the name implies (healthCARE) people who are indeed, motivated, willingly from their heart to help those good for nothing creeps.

"Choose medicine as a career only if you have the passion, and the aptitude for it.
Only then can you suffer the touch times and the inevitable injustices (not just in our country, but anywhere else for that matter) and not feel self-pity, depression and burn-out,"

That's why, medicine is tough shit to crack. A kind heart and a goodwill to help others plus good understanding is what we need. In addition, you will learn continously, read updated journals, researches for the rest of your life. I bet those parents too will wet their feet if asked to commit their life into healthcare. Every suffering person is an injured soul, they didn't want shuns and ostracised from the community, they need help and support (Medically, mentally, physically, name it) from others instead AND this is what doctors are meant to be, cuz you know, doctors have the license to kill, legally.

And now, medicine is slowly consumed by the innocent (Yet EVIL, harharhar) consumerism who sucks money from people via some doctors who didn't care shit about their patients. Money, fame is what they seek, but medicine is not the way, there are many more careers to choose from. Lucrative business, famous musicians, enigmatic politicians, creative entrepeneurs, above all garnered more annually rather than that friendly mortician general practicioner in your local clinic.

"Only when you can keep your eyes steadily on the goal of service and alleviating human suffering can you take the hurdles that crop up as challenges to be met, and overcome, rather than obstacles that overwhelm you."

So true....to see those wrecked body, agonizing pain the soul endured.....it's incredible how these people didn't crack up or losing their personal touch after years of enduring these ennerving moments. Some people screwed themselves hard (Suicide) just because of academic failures, broken love, life's downs....but to see people forced to leave the realm of the living is a hard hit to be pondered, and sometimes, the face of those who prepared, accepted the notion of their "hourly death" can be a great example of how dynamic humans can be....

So to those who hopes to be a physician one day, think thoroughly with your mind and heart, whether the "will" comes from deep of your heart, or from the external "prodding" of your peers/parents. They might say that they make a great choice in setting their child's future, but...

"In business, even fools can give adivices, while sages err in their own judgments,"

Only you can make the difference. Don't forget mom and dad, but sometimes you need to steer the boat yourself for the fruitfulness of your own.

P/S: Make sure you didn't make a wrong judgment though, this is VERY subjective.

Original source from sandpenguin.

Reincarnation

Alright, I'm gonna necromance this blog of mine now.

Nothing much to say though. Sorry for neglecting this blog for half a year. Blame Facebook, Twitter and the IRC for my absence. Mostly Twitter. Chirps :V

Many things happened during this past 6 months. Returning back home, enjoying the holiday lazily, Bon Odori, going out with girlfriend, GForum gathering, Ramadhan, not getting any scholarship or loan, eating out, balik kampung, Eid ul-Fitr and a little accident at the airport before returning back here in Egypt. It's been over a month already.

Class is like the usual. Having PBL and lectures. A bit of practical anatomy. Just got a new session called Early Experience where we have class at the hospital and looking at the patients. That's all I guess. Nothing much going on right now.

I'll post again if there's something interesting worth posting. Or when I'm not being too lazy. Haha.

-out-